I got home from China last week, and at the weekend, my family and I celebrated by having Christmas! All of the grandparents came over, and I was able to give them their gifts from China, and tell them all about my trip. Missing Christmas this was especially hard, because I know how lucky I am to have all my grandparents, and I realise that every year spent together could be our last. That sounds morbid, but what with recent health scares it’s something I have to come to terms with.
I also got some lovely gifts, including some new pants and a Christmas candle set. My room now smells like a pine forest.
The English weather has been gorgeous this week, with warmer days and beautiful stormy skies. I have had a couple of walks out in the fields (how I missed them), and have been enjoying seeing all the British birds. I saw this song thrush when I was getting dressed one morning and literally dropped everything to get a picture of it. I posted this photo (and many more) on my new birding and wildlife blog.
Perhaps my greatest achievement this week: I finished my crocheted blanket! It adds some lovely colour to my room, and I can just picture it thrown over the back of a sofa when I eventually get my own place.
I have also made some steps towards organising my future. I have a job interview later today to be a cleaner. I think it would be really handy, as I would be self employed and able to pick when and where I worked. It’s not the most aspirational job, and to be honest, I was embarrassed to tell people about it. I’m trying not to let their judgement pull me down (I’ve held back tears more than once since I told people). But this is not the end goal, and it pays better than my retail job. I can’t worry about what people think, and what assumptions are made about jobs such as that.
What is important is that if I get it, it will help pay for my course! I am so excited to start learning more about animals, and continue learning German. I hopefully will also have time to do some volunteering. There is a shelter for retired greyhound dogs near where I live and they need people to walk them. If only I could get paid to do something like that!
Of course, the best thing about being home is being able to hang out with my best friend. She doesn’t judge me, and she helps get rid of some of the stress I am feeling about the future. Making calls, changing jobs, and meeting new people are all things that I find incredibly difficult. It’s the little things like my cat, crafting, and nature that help me through.